So its been a while, its been around 6 months now since i have been teaching yoga and meditation based classes while i have been working with some health issues.
I really miss the connection and the delivery of the teachings. But the time, clearly is more focused on the physical aspect of my being, whilst contemplating what has indeed brought me to this point. What, at the deepest levels have I been ignoring and not truly facing that now up to this point, in the more earth based realms and lower manifestations of the 1st & 2nd chakras.
So its truly a blessing that I get to gain insights into being. Insights into what it means to feel pain deeply, to feel all emotions as they rise and fall around this particular health problem. Diving deeper into the aspects of the feminine being of shakti and the creative force, finding the blocks to the flow of her, of life.
The beautiful thing about ignorance is that it cannot be escaped when it gets to be deeper issues within the physical body.
Moment by moment its forever a case of deeply trusting the ongoing unfolding.
Im due to have surgery in a few weeks now, so in the meantime i have been working with my own personal healing journey. So, when possible i shall resume to teaching how ever that looks at this point it is very unknown. But if we truly inquire we can know in our hearts that life is always uncertain.
I will continue to offer dialogue sessions except for the 2 week period from 17th July.
All of life now enters the new cycle, or another season. We have officially entered Autumn, equal balance of light and dark-preparing for the long dark winter months ahead. It is time to take stock and reflect.
I am deeply aware that the coming months will involve a lot of change, yet at the core nothing moves. At the core is the deepest silence and this is a time when I find myself going more inward and feeling deep gratitude for the blessings (even when they look like challenges) as I ponder the questions that I will carry deep into the winter months. Both personal and professional.
There is ongoing thought and preparation for new courses and workshops in the very near future, the recent collaboration was a success and such an inspiration, there is a pull to do more women's work. Getting women together is very powerful and uplifting. There is still much work to be done to heal and release and move beyond outdated ideas of what it means to be a women. We are the ones that can heal the world, women are all healers.
I have profound gratitude for the teachings of Yogi Bhajan and for his dedication to share his respect and reverence for women. Through his work, i have radically altered ideas and experienced new ways of being a women in the Aquarian age. Forever deepening my own understanding and experience of living as a women, and sharing through teaching.
Non Dual teaching is Oneness. The understanding there is nothing separate that exists. Everything is connected to the one. There is no other, only in appearances at the most dense Earth level, but all forms exist as the One, as you, the infinite self - as conscious energy expression.
This is hard for the mind to grasp, and beyond the minds capability. Kundalini Yoga can really help to break apart or loosen the most ridged aspects of identity and what can be experienced, is a subtle dropping away from what once seemed so true, so real. Suddenly, one is aware, "oh that doesn't happen anymore, I don't have the same interest, or, I no longer get angry etc " a natural falling away-through the awakening consciousness. A natural spontaneous shifting of energy. This, in and of itself can be enough!
There is a method of pointing that really goes to the core of deeper truth, the deepest place one can go within, willingly. with absolutely no avoidance. With total honesty to go to the absolute end of pretending and playing games in order to truly experience the universal self.
In the times of the Aquarian Age, seemingly more and more are using this as a tool for unraveling. Somehow there is more exposure. More and more people are breaking out of the illusion of a separate self. Spontaneous awakenings are more common place. Myths about 'enlightenment' are being dispelled. 'ordinary people' are experiencing the ultimate reality and knowing that it is possible.
Often there is a deep resonance for some that this is it. or/and people come to this 'method', almost at the end of the searching, running around in life, trying to create happiness, exhausting themselves in the process, reaching all edges within the sense of self, facing all kinds of suffering and conflict, recognizing limitations at the human level. And trying out trying many other paths... So, there is a sense of readiness.
I'n my own experience, The more direct way to experience truth is through Inquiry, absolute committed investigation into contracted experience. This is really about, slowing down and noticing, awareness observing instead of being identified as the thinking process, truly breaking down the story, (all that comes from the I thought) and seeing through all the false identifications, all the ideas and beliefs about the ‘self’ that make up the conditioning. This is a direct way to absolute and total freedom, knowing with utter conviction everything is ok as it is. Including, who you are. its the willingness to be with the silence completely and all that may arise in that. To face all fears, and all beliefs you hold about yourself, to go beyond that. and of course, to face death completely.
So, while perhaps its not the way for everyone, some have no interest at all, and this too is fine! It does lead to a total annihilation of the believed identities, AND only when those who are willing to face the darkest places and even give up all personal desires :) because it is transcending both, positive and negative pulls which both relate to the dream state. Its recognizing duality but not being caught in it.
Its a sense of knowing that, what it can offer is so much more. Its reward, if you like, is complete freedom from engagement in any and all projections, allowing everything to simply be as it is, its about living life fully, being fully yourself, fully human, right here, right now, marveling as part of life as it is in this moment. Without any avoidance of pain, or grasping for comfort. the attention is in the space beyond the mind, prior to thought. All illusions are seen to be what they are. Its just a slight shift of attention yet, what is then experienced is truly profound. But its still the beginning.
We learn to just take who we think we are for granted somehow. Without questioning parts of ourselves that show up, we take it all and lump it together and say just simply this is who I am. 'me' or we live in a world were we just take who we are as 'real' Who we are (in deep truth) does not come and go. who we are remains constant. it sounds like a riddle at first, but if you feel the impulse for it to be revealed, it will through the grace of God and Guru. This is the wisdom of the sages.
you know, how people say " I am 17, 30, or 55, or 72 or whatever, yet I feel the same as always"... that's because there is that part that remains. its not about age. there is always the opportunity to find that one :)
Life presents many opportunities and many possibilities.
And, life doesn't have to be about getting things done. Or making /having a check list of various things to 'tick off' such as, places to visit, things to achieve by a certain age, or by death, motivated by a particular set of values or beliefs, or even daily mundane tasks.
For most of my life, There was a belief somehow it was all very important to REALLY live, to get out and do as much as possible etc. Even on holidays, or travel, cramming in as many activities as possible.
All of this can be worthwhile if one wishes for a way to feel accomplished or successful in a very human, earthly way. Or if we attach the label that there is meaning to living life in this way.
Yet, in this way of living there is a missing out on whats present and vitally here already. So much is here, in this moment that its overlooked.
LIFE. Life, is here. Now. And in real time, you can watch as things miraculously unfold. Effortlessly. And the possibility to really see so much.
And you and me as part of life, guided by the infinite self, the infinite being, that all encompassing energy of which ALL of life exists. This is the REAL opportunity.
The end of the 'game'. To, truly and completely be here now. Totally present, fully awake and trusting. Completely and utterly 'on the ball'. No push, no pull. no agenda. No needs to get things done,
Simply, allowing life.
Today I spent time with our newly planted trees adding a carpet mulch and when immersed in nature there is always a surge of new and fresh inspiration. While enjoying the immediate connection to Earth, totally present and aware of the vastness came away grateful. I gave a little thought to what it is I wanted to create consciously this new year, this new age.
In the Human, earthly realm there will always be this manifest reality, until death, always a life that is lived. While it is beautiful to connect with the source of all, the essential nature, there will still be an expression from which ever angle we are coming from. (The reference point) this is not something that can be avoided or forgotten in the quest to realign with source energy so while we can still enjoy this human life lets find the way to true self and make that our reference point in which to create from. One can assume then, the conscious creation will be totally congruent with our deepest sense of self and all that is.
The world, the life we live is a playground a way to make a difference to all life, we are the makers, the dreamers, the visionaries, the creators lets get back in touch with pure consciousness and stop creating in ways that are unconscious and stem from the shadow aspect.
Its time to cleanse and heal and identify with the truth of who we are. Together, we can make a difference.
HEAL YOURSELF HEAL THE WORLD Sat Nam xxxx
A New Year and a New Age, just the beginning..
First blog entry on a still very under developed website :) I intend to be here more regularly
While The season of festivities and New year celebrations have passed I find my self tiptoeing over the edge of Winter and anticipating the light and new warmth of Spring, yet feeling present to what is and noticing the lingering of the in between states.
We have now released the element of Air and welcome 2012 and the element of ether. I observe that i am still called to go deeper within the self. Still needing to reflect on the year passed in order to understand more deeply what has occurred as a result of the level to which I am conscious. And although I have had my own experience and make my own choice I am deeply aware of the connection of all things and how what I do greatly impacts the whole.
This year has been one of the deepest release in many ways letting go of more than I could have ever consciously chosen or imagined and yet that said, mostly i understand through the experience of release what can arise in its place. A year also of the deepest healing, learning, and understanding more has lead to a greater awareness of life and an even deeper connection to the source of all. It's from this place of security and comfort that I am able to with more courage forge new roads.